How I came to believe in the Lord has a lot to do with coming to Tong-Guang Church. When I first participated in the Pride Parade at 16 , I noticed Tong-Guang Church and that was when the first seeds of faith were quietly planted in my heart. During last year’s Christmas Eve, I came across the Christmas Eve activity information on Tong-Guang’s website. At that time, my life was at it’s lowest point, and on impulse I filled up the registration form for the Christmas party. However, when the time came, my autism and all kinds of emotions resurfaced, so I ended up not going. Five months later, on my 21st birthday, I turned off all the lights and sat alone in my room. And then I sang happy birthday to myself. And as I sang, I cried. Then I did something I had never done before -- I prayed. I said, "God, please guide me. I am willing to follow you. Please heal me, let me sleep well, let me find a direction, and be able to experience the simple things in life in an unfiltered way! Lord! Please save me!" After praying, there was a sense of tingling at the back of my head. That same day, I also decided to do another thing for myself, I emailed Tong-Guang Church asking when and where the church service was. However, I still didn't go. Finally, a month later, that is, last June, I came to Tong-Guang. And then I decided to stay on.
Come to think of it, Tong-Guang and I have a few things in common. First of all, I was born in 1995, the same year when Tong-Guang first formed the Jonah fellowship group. On May 5, 1996, when I was one year old, Tongguang Church was officially founded in Tamsui Middle School. When I learnt about these coincidences, I was very surprised and moved. I suddenly realised that as early as when I came into this world, the Lord Jesus had already prepared a place for me to be comforted, to be safe and to know God in the future when I would encounter storms in life. In fact, among some brothers and sisters here, I can see reflections of myself -- our shared delicate and sensitive nature, the way we face our emotions honestly, and are more willing to reflect on ourselves. Although we are more likely to feel lonely in this way, this spiritual personality also helps us to get closer to God and receive His love.
I believe that real fate is this, that even after a series of misses, we can still find and recognize each other. And that real belief is when even after a series of setbacks, you can still see the beautiful plans laid out by the Lord, and have faith and peace in your heart. After coming to Tong-Guang’s group meetings and worship services, I felt an incredible calmness and peace. From Pastor Huang’s sermons to cell group discussions, I began to realise that the matter of "belief" is no longer far away, imaginary or just a bible passage read by the Pope. Conversely, faith is life, and life is faith. In the process of faith, although there will still be times of vulnerability and questioning, I have come to gradually understand that God is teaching me that what He wants to bring me is not the final form of one thing, but the essence of "love and tolerance".
Today, I am about to be baptised. Filled with joy and faith, I declare in front of all of you my covenant with the Lord, to follow Him, to worship Him, and take the heart of Jesus Christ as my heart. From here onwards, all that I do, I do to honour and glorify the Lord. Amen.